[She nods slowly, before taking a deep breath and turning to face her again.]
It was, because I was told that friendship requires honesty, and -
[There's a moment where she looks down at her hands. Hands that have ended more lives than they have saved, through rash decisions that have only hurt rather than helped.]
- I am not proud of what I did, even though it was necessary at the time. I've convinced myself over so many years of being able rely on no one that I am the only one that I need to hold myself accountable to - that so long as I can live with my actions, then that is all that matters.
[But she can't live with it, can she? She's tried living with the truth of what she's done to Davina and what it's cost her family, let alone herself, but at the same time, she's still scrambling to survive, would still make the same decision because Klaus, Rebekah and the rest may have had a thousand years, but she has only had two with them.
They were going to die. Lucien would have destroyed them all and Davina was already dead. Maybe there are things she would have done differently, but in the end, the choice would be the same.
She can't prioritize the dead over the living.]
But here I worry about what I may have to do in order to destroy her.
[Her being her mirror, because that is coming, no matter how long it takes.]
somewhere lives the preposterous idea that i forgive myself.
It was, because I was told that friendship requires honesty, and -
[There's a moment where she looks down at her hands. Hands that have ended more lives than they have saved, through rash decisions that have only hurt rather than helped.]
- I am not proud of what I did, even though it was necessary at the time. I've convinced myself over so many years of being able rely on no one that I am the only one that I need to hold myself accountable to - that so long as I can live with my actions, then that is all that matters.
[But she can't live with it, can she? She's tried living with the truth of what she's done to Davina and what it's cost her family, let alone herself, but at the same time, she's still scrambling to survive, would still make the same decision because Klaus, Rebekah and the rest may have had a thousand years, but she has only had two with them.
They were going to die. Lucien would have destroyed them all and Davina was already dead. Maybe there are things she would have done differently, but in the end, the choice would be the same.
She can't prioritize the dead over the living.]
But here I worry about what I may have to do in order to destroy her.
[Her being her mirror, because that is coming, no matter how long it takes.]